I had a fabulous time at the wedding last night. I ended up drinking a little too much champagne and indulging in wedding cake, but I spent a fabulous night with dear friends who I haven’t seen since I moved. I always get emotional at weddings. I can’t help it. Last night was no different. Although I did wish there was a certain someone at the wedding with me, I didn’t let it ruin my evening. I felt beautiful, and seeing my friends was balm to my soul. I didn’t realize quite how much I missed them. I had fun dancing and my back didn’t bother me. It was a good evening. And did I mention I had wedding cake. Yum! I got up this morning and drove back to Nashville. I’m currently doing laundry and repacking my suitcase to fly out at 6 in the morning for a work trip.
As I sit here and wait on my yoga pants to dry so I can pack them, I have a confession to make. I am utterly confused about a current situation with the one mentioned above (and I confess to still missing in previous posts). He contacted me this week. Things haven’t changed, and I remain steadfast and determined to keep the boundaries up unless there is a marked changed. However, I did respond to his text messages because well, I’ve missed him. And then, Thursday night he just completely disappears mid-conversation. No answers to my texts since then and my calls go to voicemail. I am worried, and I hate that I am worried about him but I am. I’ve been ghosted on before but this all seems out of character for him and strange. Maybe he’s blocked me. If so, that’s a first for me too, and I’m not really sure why he would (again, it was mid-conversation). But what can I do? So I hope he’s okay, and I’ll continue to try to go on with my life as I was before he reached out to me last week. I guess I just had to voice my confusion and hurt before doing so – create my own closure. It really sucks though. I overanalyze everything anyway, and this has been on my mind all weekend. I’m sure y’all think I’m crazy. I certainly feel like I am.
Other than packing, I am distracting myself with research on where I’m going for work with plans to do a lot of walking and strategizing ways to eat healthy while traveling. Last week, I was pretty good about curbing my sugar until the wedding cake incident this weekend. Damn, sugar is a hell of a drug. I’ve had cravings for sweets all day today! I’ll keep y’all posted on my travels and how I’m doing. Hopefully I’ll have pretty pictures to post from my adventures too. For now, here are some pictures from the wedding.