Today work was punishing me for being gone most of the week at the conference. I had to have some tough meetings, and it was one of those days where you run like crazy but feel like you get nothing accomplished. The conference was really good, but really busy. It was my first work trip after the promotion, and it was a new challenge juggling work responsibilities remotely. It is good to be home (and back to my desktop).
I’m working on gratitude and not complaining about being busy. I’m working on really appreciating the life that I have and the journey I’m on. It’s hard some days. Other days, it is a breeze. Today was a more unappreciative day. Today, I struggled with gratitude. I found myself thinking about “the boy” a lot. He reached out while I was out-of-town. I know I shouldn’t have responded, but I did. For some reason it felt safer since I was out-of-state. But he stays with me long after we end our talk. And then he texted today to check and make sure I made it home from my trip safely. So there was that, on top of all the work stuff. I shouldn’t be thinking of him. I should be enjoying texting the new cute guy who shows some promise and is really sweet. And I am. I really am. But yet, I’m thinking of him. So maybe that is a sign I’m not ready to date yet. I don’t know.
I ended up not leaving work until after 7:00, and it was already getting dark. I was feeling a little frazzled, but as I crossed the street on my walk home, I noticed how beautiful the moon is tonight. And it is a comfort isn’t it? Knowing that we are all under the same moon. So I took a moment to admire the moon and reflect on its beauty before I had to make one last phone call to wrap up my work day.
I ended up ordering dinner delivery, too tired to go to the store. I have nothing but peach-flavored water in my fridge. I kept thinking about the moon though. So after I finished my dinner, I decided to slip up to my apartment roof to write this piece under the moonlight. A little bit of natural beauty in this busy city. Isn’t it a comfort though? Knowing you and I are under the same moon?