Just keep working out!

As of January 20, I have worked out fifteen days this month. Not all of my workout are hour-long hardcore workouts, but my goal is to be active and move my body for at least fifteen minutes and continue to build on each workout.  I am happy with my numbers so far.  One of my goals is getting back to an active lifestyle.  Before I get immersed in a routine, it is so easy for me to get knocked off the wagon.  It is so easy to be lazy, and when I am really down I let any little thing derail me.  Not this month!


Over the last week or so, Tennessee has had two different rounds of snow and ice.  Since I moved out to the country two weeks ago, getting snow and ice means that I don’t get to leave the house.

However, I knew that I could not fall back off the workout wagon.  I was determined to still be active even though I couldn’t get to the gym.  I found a kickboxing workout on Amazon Prime and did some at home dance videos.  I was able to still hit my workout target of five days a week.  Go me! The picture below shows just how little room I have to workout.  I still got it done! No excuses for me this week.  It was critical for me to keep building the active habits from earlier this month.


Saturday morning, I was able to get back to the gym and did 50 minutes of dance blast.  I ended up sweating my ass off and burning 824 calories.  It felt great getting back to the gym and having a change from the home workouts. Plus I liked having the music blasting as I dance around with strangers.  It’s just not the same at home.


My stats so far this month. Burn baby burn!

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I saw the sign… Wait! No I didn’t!

All is currently on track for 2018. I have consistently been working out again. Yay! I’ve been making my way to the gym after work each night even after commuting. I no longer live in downtown Nashville and commute about 45 minutes (with traffic) into work. Last Thursday night, I got the gym about 30 minutes before dance blast class. Coming straight from work, I was still in business attire and had to change clothes. At the YMCA, there are two different dressing rooms for women: the regular 18 and up dressing room and the Family dressing room for 17 and younger and their female adults. Some of you who know me well can probably see where this is going…

I am not a very modest person. I have no shame in changing in front of others and never use the changing rooms in the gym. So Thursday night, I go into the locker room and find a corner and start to strip off my shirt. Luckily, I realized that there were children in the dressing room. I quickly started packing up my stuff when a woman brought her young grandson in with her. I asked two teenagers if there was another dressing room I had missed. As they reluctantly tore their eyes away from their iPhones, they looked at me with pity to let me know that oh there was. Right next door to where I was. I had not been paying attention and walked right past it into the second family dressing room. Oops! I could have scarred someone for life.  I managed to recover from my near faux pas and get myself to dance blast.  I ended up dancing it out to burn 785 calories. Woohoo! But I was a sweaty hot mess.  I definitely have to get back into dancing shape, but I will get there.

Always pay attention to the signs! Just a little public service announcement from yours truly. Now go forth, and get undressed in the appropriate locker rooms!


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Hello 2018! Where have I been?

Sooooooo….. It’s been nine months since I’ve written anything. The last nine months have been a pretty crazy roller coaster and a bunch of my old body demons have resurfaced. I’ve felt ashamed to write about them – that I’ve somehow let everyone down. But, I forgot how powerful this blog is for me. Not powerful in terms of reaching out to people or being a “public figure” (although we all know I love the spotlight), but in terms of it being therapeutic for me to work through tough issues in my writing. Also, I forgot how much it helps to feel like I am connecting to at least one person. That I’m not alone through all this. Let me write you a brief synopsis of everything I’ve been dealing with over the past nine months. However, let me also start out by saying that I’ve had some incredible adventures during that time and some very joyous moments. Due to lack of time and wanting to write at least something, I’m only going to be summarizing my woes for you. Oh how fun, right?

As you may remember from my last post (but likely not since it was nine months ago! Oy!), I was diagnosed with PCOS. Due to switching to an IUD (intrauterine device) from hormonal birth control pills, my body became hormonally imbalanced and my PCOS flared up causing lightning fast weight gain.  I went to the doctor to discuss my options.  At first, we decided to start birth control pills while keeping the IUD.  However, after several months and continuing with the same issues, I decided to remove the IUD and just rely on hormonal birth control pills.  In just six months, my cholesterol and insulin levels sky-rocketed.  I felt betrayed by my body.  My blood work has always been fantastic, and I could not understand why now it was an issue.  Yes, I’m getting older.  Maybe that was it.  I’ve since discovered that high cholesterol and high insulin are another side effect of PCOS.  Fun times! My doctor started me on metformin, but boy does my stomach not like that medication.  I’ve felt embarrassed to go to the gym.  I still cannot lose weight.  Talk about being all aboard the frustration station!


With any new year, I’ve taken time to hone in on what I want to accomplish and focus on this year.  I have decided that I don’t believe in resolutions anymore because they seem temporary.  But, I am determined to get my health back on track.  I made it to the gym five times this week, and I plan to go to restorative yoga this afternoon.  I did my first dance blast class in nine months yesterday! I forgot to wear my fitbit though.  So, does a workout count if you do it without your fitbit? Asking for a friend. It feels nice heading back into the gym.  However, some old insecurities popped back up.  For instance, I was bothered about being the fattest girl in the dance class. Luckily, my mind and body soon got caught up in the music, and the rhythm took control.  I also had to fight the feeling that everyone was looking at me and judging me.  It’s been a long time since I’ve felt that way in the gym.  I’m hoping that continuing to build back those habits will soon erase all the unease I once felt and now feel again.  I thought those days were long gone! I also have to learn to give my body grace. It has 40 extra pounds on it right now, so I know that I need to be gentle and forgive all the aches and pains.  I will get there.


Cheers to a new year.  I will continue to be grateful.  I am determined to be healthy and strong.  Let’s do this!


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